It has been a while

Days like today make me think.
Days like today make me pray.
Days like today make me wonder.
And days like today...
they make me thankful.

I was ready to tear my hair out. The kids in my class were screaming. (I'm teaching two year olds. Lots of two year olds). And today, some of those two year olds had fevers. And rashes. And temper tantrums. And my patience? It was ripping. Paper thin, fragile, and ripping.

I sat down, cradling a tiny body in my arms, wishing her pain away and realized that she clung to me for comfort. She wiped her tears on my shirt and layed her head on my chest. And in the midst of the chaos. The wall covered in green crayon. The floor sticky with juice. The toys strewn about. I was ok. Because I can comfort and nurture and be there for someone else.

Oh the day was challenging. Don't get me wrong. But it's over now. And my sore throat, aching legs, pounding head, and tired back remind me of just how hard this job is. But my heart. My full, loving, hopeful heart tells me that I'm here for a reason. And day by day, piece by piece, I'm putting this puzzle together.

So tonight, sitting here with my dog by my side, the Christmas tree shining brightly I have faith and hope, and love.

So this is a huge THANK YOU to everything and everyone. Thank you. Because sometimes thats the only thing to say.