Food & Fasting

I have always had a tumultuous relationship with food. I crave steak, but I can't eat it (it literally makes me sick). Pork and I have a checkered past. It's not that pork makes me sick, it's that when I think about what I'm eating, it makes me nauseous and I can't continue. So I've basically sworn off beef, and pork for the past...oh...10 years or more. And it's really not that big of a deal. There are the occasional naysayers who question my eating habits, and all that does is make me laugh. Because really? Shut it. What I eat is my business and only my business.

Lately, I've been doing a lot of reading on chicken, how it's raised, the nutrition content, etc and it shocked me. While I won't press my views on anyone else (I won't even post what I've learned here) I will say this, as a personal decision I've decided to eliminate chicken from my diet as well. I've never claimed to be a vegetarian before, and I don't think I will now either. I'm not morally opposed to the consumption of meat and I don't see myself ever feeling that way. However, as I said, my personal decision at this time is to eliminate all meat from my diet. And for me that does NOT include seafood because I firmly believe I would DIE without shrimp, crabs, lobster, fish, scallops, and other tiny little shelled treasures.

I say all this because right now....I'M HUNGRY. I'm a lapsed Catholic and yet every year when Lent rolls around I feel an intense desire to give up something, to be a little better, to try to grasp onto the tenuous thread I still have connecting me to the church. In addition? This year during Lent I'm fasting every Wednesday. Why? Because I figure it's the least I can do. And while I'm quite hungry and feeling very sleepy, I think it's a good thing. So I sit here tonight thinking about food, and all the people that have nothing to eat and...I'm not quite so hungry after all.