So has this ever happened to you: There you are just living your life. Waking up. Drinking that coffee (or bourbon) ,heading off to work, paying the bills, when suddenly you realize...
Oh shit. This isn't what I want.
I like to call this my quarter life crisis. What I'm currently slugging through. What this exhaustion is signaling. What my dreams are telling me. What that little voice in the back of my head is SCREAMING.
This isn't what I want.
So I'm a little pissed off. At no one in particular. (except...uh...me) And the "man". Cause he needs some blame today. And I've started taking steps in what is MY right direction. I'm saying to hell with what others think. To hell with their expectations, disappointments, and dreams for me. I can't live for anyone else. And that's what I did for a long time. My fault. I accept 100% responsibility. And that's why it's up to me to take the reins on this proverbial horse and change direction.
Are you confused yet? Good! Me too! I live my life in a blender where everything just swirls around me, and I'm always narrowly missing the blade.
Needless to say I'm on a mission. A few missions. And I work best under pressure. Being the underdog suits me. Any given Sunday and whatnot.
So here's to a rainy Wednesday. Here's to text messaging making long absences more bearable. Here's to grilled cheese and tomato sandwiches. Here's to being able to laugh everyday no matter what.
And here's to beginnings.
4 comments:
Very interesting. Can't wait to see where this leads.
Here's to beginnings indeed.
As you asked, it has happened to me, and I'm so glad it did. Stick with it, and life will take you in weird and wonderful directions.
I'm looking forward to seeing where this leads you, too.
Ms.Moon- Yes ma'am. We shall see. I'm keeping cute bf. That's the only thing I'm sure of right now ;)
Mwa- Thanks for the encouragement. I appreciate it a lot!!
Your sasanqua is beautiful! I clicked the link to learn what it was. I thought hibuscus, not camelia. I'd go nuts without my camera, I take pictures daily, if everything. And very funny, about that annoying little chip.
I was wondering, can you videochat on that Mac? Does Lily have webcam capability? If the cell phone pic is Dick Tracy, imagine what video chatting would be like. I'd pop in all day asking what's he doing now and show me! If that technology isn't on board yet, it's something to lust after. Videochat eased my missing my far away sister, we even cook together, far apart, it's weird but good.
I hadn't noticed insane comma placement, and I'm usually picky about those things. Don't let an editor near you, you're perfect!
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