I was so looking forward to a relaxing December. Oh sure there are the two jobs, buying presents, making cookies, seeing family and all that Holidays entail. But still, overall this was going to be a fun filled month with plenty of time for just enjoying the snow and season.
And then the shit hit the fan.
And suddenly I don't have enough paper for all the to-do lists. And ohmagod did you know that Christmas is like 12 days away? I need to find a partridge in a pear tree and all that other crap.
And I need to get my bridesmaid dress altered and steamed. And do a bunch of other wedding related activities.
And then a bombshell last night. Cute boyfriend will be gone the 22nd-29th for work in California. I am oh-so-very proud of him. For his hard work and success and for getting this opportunity to do something so important. But it's bittersweet because he'll be clear across the country on Christmas morning. But it is what it is. (and I can't even tell you how proud I am)
My grandfather is still sick. Very sick. Leukemia is a nasty thing. So I pray.
I'm here, in the dark of pre-dawn just trying to breathe and be organized. I need to go for a run when the sun comes up. I need to clear my head and feel the pavement under my feet as my breath rises in a cloud and disappears. Because I work from 10am-midnight today. And then tomorrow it starts all over again.
What is your holiday stress? What are your holiday blessings?
1 comment:
I spent my first Christmas without Beau too...it does suck, but the reuniting is awesome!!! I'm still sending lots of prayers your way for your grandpa. There is no holiday stress here this year, just enjoying my hubby, and how excited all of the kids are for the decorations and lights, cookies, christmas music, and of course the presents! This is my favorite time of year, and the first year that it's been stress free, and I'm loving it!! Just remember to enjoy every moment...they are very precious memories:)
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